Why “Your Unexpected Beauty?”

There are pivotal times in my life that determined how I percieved myself. When my sister and I were pointed out as the “dark ones” in my family, during a time where all I was exposed to was that light skin is beautiful. When I was flipping through a bible at church and saw that one of my cousins had written (in the bible) to one of my sister  “What are ya’ll feeding Yolanda?” and my sister responded “EVERYTHING.” This made me feel like whenever anyone looked at me all they saw was a little fat girl and where disgusted by me. Then there was the time when one of my closest cousins told me as we spoke on the phone “Your voice doesn’t sound like your fat” WTH. Which although meant as a compliment was very insulting on many levels. I guess when she was talking to me in person she was so distracted by my fat that she couldn’t hear my voice. Got to love family they are the ­­foundation for everything that makes you you. And then here comes the world who never pointed me in my face and said you’re not beautiful, but instead backed into it “wow you’re so pretty for a big girl,” “wow I can’t believe you wear your arms out I could never do that” funny how many of my compliments starts with a “WOW” or some other over the top word to disguise their surprise that I can pull myself together despite my skin color, despite my hair straight or natural, despite my weight and the list goes on and on. So in spite of all this, I have learned to love and embrace the beauty of me and my life.   Here I am Your Unexpected Beauty!!!